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sheez--heartbroken...listen to my pleas...

2004-11-08T16:43:00.000+08:00

Crap..i cant do without her..someone..help me..i need her..i want her....i cannot do without her...each day without her is like hafin someone tear my hear apart..bit by bit..slicing it to the core..leaving behind nothing but gruesome sight of blood spewing outta the heart...i wish i could do something to change the fact..but..i dunno if she'll gimme juz that chance..ever since that incident..i dun think she will wanna haf anything to do wif me..anymore..forever..i wish i could juz turn back the time..and set everything in order..so that at least i got the hope of having her by my side once more..but..its too late..i wish i had never done that..even in a moment of folly..i hurt her deeply..and thus..hurtin myself oso..i haf been troubled ever since the day of the incident..unable to sleep well...thinkin abt wad had come over me that day...i dunwan to lose her..i pray to whomever hears my pleas..for me..i juz hope//she's happy..but i wanna be alive like b4 again....i need her..desperately....i dun care..i hereby swear that i will get her back...but not by underhand methods....by orthodox methods...becoz i love her

oopsie

2004-09-08T10:19:00.000+08:00

sian la....nowadays so bored until dont even feel like blogging...monday went kallang...so shiok...saw peter nicol...the squash world number 1 ... he way he play was like so kewl...his volleys couldnt be seen clearly...wtf...and nick shot somemore...thats gotta be crazy.... a left hander~ kewl ~
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now die liao...supposed to send shirley something...havent even prepare yet... wa kaoz... really die liao... wonder wad to do... lets hope she dont mind it being late.... =(
zzz....js woken up...dont feeel like bloging too much... still cannot stand my classmates tone of speaking...really like... make me feel as if they wanna pick a fight... wonder whether i should... lolx
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heck~so bored nowadays...muz do it..study!

2004-09-04T19:10:00.000+08:00

man...studying period...no one believes that i will study...not that i give a damned...so no harm at all to me...i promise u...my angel...my goddess...i will not do anything to make my studies go from bad to worst...instead...trust me that i will do my best to make myself known for making a breakthrough at the end of the year~as myself....by myself...wif no one else's but your support!
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now i am at my grandma's hse...about to fall asleep...man..todae so tiring...out the whole day playin squash...first woke up at abt 8:30am to prepare to go to Ngee Ann Polytechnic...went there to play squash wif the Jurong JC guyz and NP ppl~quite fun looking at them play...and here i thank Desiree for inviting us to that friendly match...although it wasnt that much of an experience...wif JJC being so easily trashed~haiz...nevertheless it was *fun* and i saw lots of cute gals although i not interested...juz having my goddess is enuf...
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after that...i went baq...home...den went out again..siao liao...this time to scgs...go play squash again*dont think YY*i didnt go there to hook gurls(whether or not i have the ability)anyway...went there to play squash against their "B" division school team...although they were "B" div. they werent much of a match for us...(me, almo, derrick, and our captain IVAN)
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lol...so lame...onli Ivan lost...although he was fighting the 3rd seed of SCGS...but still he was supposed to win....nvm....he played kelong todae(every other days also of coz~lol)so we four had to win the other matches...and we did...quite fun...played wif some ppl over there...in the end so tired until i fell asleep on the floor after playing....sian....nth to do...picked up derrick's book...read...memorised...and slept (lol) better than nothing la...see people play kelong wif the gals...not fun...read books...not my fav pastime (for the present times of coz) haiz..so sleep la...
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at first didnt wanna go to my grandma's hse...but in the end...no choice...parents say wad..:"u so long didnt go visit ur grandma...go la...visit ur cousins also." haiz...that kinda sentence...u think got choice or not? humph~nvm...wad's done is done....all i hope is get back faster the better...feel tired...but wanna chat wif someone...*yawn*... god... yawn so many times already...i think i reached my limits todae...been out the whole week doing strenous excercises.......haiz... wonder whether i still can *tahan* a little longer...and play a few more days outdoors...
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pissed

2004-09-03T15:47:00.000+08:00

wa lau~todae teacher talk so much cok~sian...got PTM todae...siao liao... last day gimme ptm...they buay song issit? they ot nth to do doesnt mean i noting to do right?...they still ask me stayback and PTM den later in PTM tell me go home study...how to go home study if they keep me back for PTM...haiz...why they until now still dont understand...sian..
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anywaex...the maths teacher sure scold me when i return to school on monday 2 weeks later...i todae damned rude to him lor...sian...always cut him off halfway through his sentence...but i dont really give a damn....he say things always the same one...wad...from wad low class get good grades coz of attitude...goddammit la...he wanna lecture me...he got the right and ability mehz?more likely i counsel him then correct la...kaoz...talk to me liddat in front of me mum...think i dont dare talk back issit?
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in the end he still kenah jabbed by me...whether wif parents or not...i really cannot be bothered this kinda teacher not worth being upset over...plus ms wong...wa lan...the way she talk...like really got grudge against me liddat...wonder if i did something wrong to her my past life... she everyday see me *bu shuang* think i care?no way!
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anyway...tiring day it is todae la...leg all numb and wobbly...cannot even climb stairs properly...lol...sound like an old man...but its true...aint old man though..kekez...stopped gunbound so now i do blog to pass time...better than doin nothing...wonder how my frenz are feeling...one even didnt talk to me...said feeling down...so i didnt disturb...wonder how that friend of mine is now...lets hope the situation turns for the better
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oki~no more slackin~hugs my best frenz~and myself~promises~no more slacking

2004-09-02T19:03:00.000+08:00

man~todae ms wong did her prep tak on our class again~wa sianz like shit...wasted ½ an hr on that talk~kaoz~
but todae...somehow...i managed to stay awake..and becoz of that...i kenah "shoot" by her...everything she says are all aimed at me..lucky i control~ or the class kenah~lol~i learning to control myself nowadays!YIPEE!
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anyway...i promised myself no more slacking~now no more gunbound~i promise to everyone who is arnd me(those who care abt me in the first place...)but...NO MORE SLACKING! i gonna stop...and i mean it...stop...maybe todae i go online tell all my friends gdbye 4 the time being...
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haiz...everyone reading my blog...study hard! dont learn to be like me...last minute study...although i help people...no one trusts me coz i failed my exams~lol~for not studying~ this shows something...the society accepts u for ur achievements...be a gd student and show ur results!den everyone will learn to trust u wif things!thats gonna be my attitude now...so everyone..once again...dont be like me helping others and not helpin myself...now even some of my gd frenz dont listen to me and push me aside...i aint gonna be sad...coz i know thats my downfall for not doin well in exams!
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hm...wad to write...

2004-08-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

sounds lame but i gotta say...gunbound got probs....lame right?write about gunbound in my blog...haizz..nvm....
all my friends should buy me a wheelchair liao...i getting lamer and lamer each day...
haizz, but suddenly my studies started to improve leh...i also dunno wad happened...izzit becoz i concentrate in class now?...no way... i always sleep in class...how to improve...siao liao..i think i better think about it b4 i sleep tonight...hahaha....but tmr will be fun...going back to my primary school...den later go my frenz' hse to play...wahha

so fun..anywaex...i always cannot be bothered to do my blog..but...wahaha...everyday at night i will write my blog for that day...if i forgot...SO BE IT!!!muahahax~~~

wahaha....my english sux liao...maybe coz i speak too much singlish sia la...haizz..now have to hand the com over to my sleepy daddy!!!!!lol...i sound childish right?...sad thing is that..no one think so when they see me...damned sad..my body grew faster than my mind...wahahaha...no one ever says that about himself..but...thats me...and its the truth...wahaha....so lamee and...i am childish...no one knows onli...kaoz...i really wanna go back to primary school...ZZZ now off to bed!!!and same for u .... u little imps!

OMG!!!...I HATE THIS WORLD NOW!!!! >.<"

2004-08-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

sian leh~so bloody borin!!! also dunno wad happened to me..sia la...i see everyone buay song now lor...i siao liao...
at that time in the library..saw a few secondary ones behind me...looking at wad i was doin...i felt so agitated at that time...and i scolded them...said,"hey u! nothing to do right? dont block me...and get out of the library...dont be kpo!" liddat lor...LOL... quite fun la...but...haizzz dunno wad happened to me liao~ WAHAHAHA

btw...i also dunno why but...i felt extremely tired nowadays...in class can sleep in front of teacher...wtf... i really siao liao...i think i kenah PMS....mood swing like crazy... people tell me to get angry i really gt angry and almost beat that person up... i kenah the title "si bei HOT TEMPERED!" zzz

but quite obvious...i sure liddat one la...see me...actually..i dont seem like that kind..coz i aint wad i used to be...zzz...
something went wrong...dunno where though... but...i hope i can chang for the better... really... zzz ... i also very long-winded nowadays... read my blogs...all long...so long...compare...wif my frenz...
i think mine longer by a lot...haizz... anywaex....I DONT GIVE A DAMNED ABOUT MY TEACHERS... like that lor...i end now...COZ I HATE MISS YURNI SHE SUX>>>IN A SENSE THAT SHE COMES FOR HER CLASS SO ACCURATELY...EXACTLY ON THE DOT WHEN THE BELL RINGS... SHE IS IN MY CLASS LIAO...WTF!!! I HATE THIS TYPE OF TEACHERS...DAMNED SARK

oki...i crazy liao...start to "fa kuang"«发狂»already...i bet u guyz...i sure kenah another pink form and another suspension...WAHAHA i almost shouted at the teacher again...haha. had the urge to say," feel ur wrath if i dont hand up my work!?WTF(in full) i dont give a damned about ur wrath...why dont u feel mine...i tell u...u sure shocked until cannot give birth anymore! not that anyone wants u , u biatch(muz be appropriate)wahahaha"

but...my classmates stopped me...so i in the end didnt lor
wahaha

zzz...so damned boring...so late liao cannot sleep

2004-08-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

this is crap...bullshid...all so lame...todaex is another day...where i did NOTHING AT ALL!!!!
this is so damned crappy....i dunno wad the ack is wrong wif me...but...dunno...juz get that freaky feeling that there will be something big happening..soon....soon....
but...that soon...also dunno when it really gonna happen....
awwwxxx crap...now i also dunno wad i trying to say liao...c'mon...someone...save me from the depths of hell i m in now!!!!SOMEONE!!!!

now...i am sitting on my chair...thinking...typing...all my feelings....i really wonder...why cant i juz express my feelings as easily as others can..or issit juz my imagination?hm...i dunno..i guess when i learn all this..i would've been considered as a grown-up already...enuf to take care of my own feelings and life...the world of dreams and hopes...i should be avoiding it for a period of time now....i am still wondering...

if u think i am a pessimistic person...u are downright wrong...coz...i aint..i am actually very optimistic...thinking seeing the head of level for a scolding is nothing...lol...i dunno why...i feel damned sad......despondent..more likely..lonely..i neeed someone... someone who can bring my life to a new heights...bring my life joy...peace...cant think of anymore...(when i thought of it, i would be dead already...)asked too much..i wonder..